There are just times that I feel like i want to pour out my every day happenings and feelings and all, but some days when i have the time to set back and think, my mind just goes b.l.a.n.k. .Unfortunately, today is one of those latter days. Gah. What's wrong with me? >.<"

My mum decided that we won't go to Penang today, which can be quite a relief actually. The need and urge to study pushes out even further as the days tick closer and closer to the 20th of nov. Grrr. Can't wait to be over that. My studies are not in such a good shape. T.T

Went to autocity to see Raymond Lam but couldn't take any pics of him cuz hp battery ran out when he finally appeared.Took some of the sports cars instead at the exhibition that was on earlier.

So, it's been a month already~! Mygosh. Silly me. Nth to fuss over abt, but OMGIT'SBEENAFREAKINGMONTHSINCEWE'VESTARTED! Hahaha, the past month have been quite an emotional rollercoaster,really. With episodic lectures and head-shakes from parents and some glitches to be fixed between us, it has not been thatttt easy. But I can tell you i'm happy now.=) The future is uncertain but all I know for sure is that i must work hard for everything to work out nicely. I still need my future. And i'm still hoping to be treating animals in that future. But i can't leave my dear too, ya know? So i'm starting on the balancing act. I just hope i don't fall on either side.

I hope my dear is doing the same too. I like how we learn from each other from different prospects. It's a great feeling, our relationship. How he rushes after class to meet me somewhere in the school, how i bought him an english book for him to work on....I'd love to leave at least a mark or something in his life for him to remember me by even if it doesn't work out in the future. Love you,dear...

I know i look tired in this,but he looks good here! I'm not that selfish,ya know? LOL.

And yes, i just want to say thank you to a certain someone who has been there to support me before this. I'm sorry you had to find out from someone else, but believe me, i've really been planning to tell you all along. Just can't find the right way or time. Anyway, i'm really sorry if i really hurt you, but just hope you know i really like you as a friend.Just know you don't have to wait for me...don't want you to waste your time on me...thanks and sorry.God bless even if you're never reading this. Hope you're doing fine.

This is my attempt at making a love-shaped bubble-balloon. Failz Y/N?

Trust me, i really do have a lot of things to tell actually, but i guess I just don't have the time or mind to really write out every single detail. :/ Gotta go back to doing what i'm supposed to be doing. S.T.U.D.Y.I.N.G. Argh,wat a sickening word.>.<

Currently feeling: awake

I'm going to be straight and forward (what i mean is straight-forward.) :

I really REGRET not joining the Penang Bridge Marathon 2008. You tell me not to think about it and that it's alright.

But I can't stop myself from thinking about it.

How can I when :

*I could have gotten some kk marks from this and not bother about it anymore

*we could be in Penang TOGETHER

*we would have the chance to stroll through Queensbay Mall TOGETHER

*we could be cuddling through the night until the marathon starts TOGETHER

*Starwalk is on the 14th of DEC which is one day after my dad's birthday. I can't possibly go off like that, can I? And you might not even want to join this TOGETHER with me anyway.

*we could be sharing a meal TOGETHER

*we could have fun TOGETHER

*we could run or jog or just walk hand-in-hand on the bridge TOGETHER

*we could support each other throughout the marathon TOGETHER

*we could have a chance to spend a rare and precious day TOGETHER.

You and Me. Me and You.

Sigh. Now you tell me not to think about it.

I hate regrets. Having regrets feels like breathing in water. You try to breathe, but it makes you choke even harder. And you wish you took a bigger gulp of air earlier. But no, you're already sinking.

Worst thing about it? It was my own choice to jump into the water.

I'm sorry, dear.

P.S.: I just realised i just totally failed you, Carmen. I am made of sappiness now. Gah. You just gave me another reason to be emo. Whee.

Currently feeling: regret