this is the latest addition to the family!

she's two months old and not exactly mine...it's bought by my sister and her boyfriend.But since his mum wouldn't let him keep another dog at home (he already has fat fat Shih Tzu called Princess),so he dumps her here!well,ok,maybe not so crude as dump lar.but she's staying with us lor...maybe permanently until they decide to get married?hmmm,i dunno.but she's darn cute!!she eats so fast and roughly just like Russell,as if she hasn't tasted dog food for since the Ice Age.she still poos and pees everywhere in the house.we're all still trying our best to scream our lungs out to train her to do her business in the house compound.

Bub seems very startled to see her when she arrived.she's kinda like,afraid of the unknown.She ignored her in the beginning but now we noe she's fighting for attention.cuz usually she wouldn't even lift a paw when we call out for her,but now with competition around,she comes rightaway!! I love them both as much!even though mum and dad prefers bub,cuz jolie does naughty stuffs like chewing the newspapers and peeing and pooing everywhere.seems like they forgot bub also does that when she was small and received countless cane-beatings and shouts and creams screams.

Aww,aren't they sweet?

Currently feeling: okay

I felt nothing when I wrote that post just now.I just wrote,ok,typed and typed and typed.Words just keep on pouring out,until my hands become a lil sweaty for trying to keep up with my mind.

It's funny how I could feel so much,and yet feel nothing.Yes,like I told you,it's weird.I dun cry about it,I dun feel bad about it anymore,I just didn't feel anything else.It would seem like I'm down,yes,but was it for real?Am i really feeling depressed because of him?After all these years..?Do i still care anymore?It felt really hopeless a couple of days ago,but now it felt like nothing.Have I gone numb?Or perhaps it has really reduced to nothing over the years.

And I wonder if nothing means good.

P.S.:Yes,I did a private post.So this is the 2nd edition.A public post.

 

Currently feeling: numb

Yeah.I do.

Maybe they didn't do it on purpose.But it felt like shite to me.I always had this feeling of being ignored by them.I can't help it.They just carry on laughing and talking,while I just stand there,doing nothing.Just looking,and wondering,and getting upset.The more I look,the more I wonder,the more I wonder,the more I get upset,the more I get upset,the more I get depressed.May as well no need to look lar.

Geez.

Divine_Reverie : Exam's on next Tuesday and I still haven't really studied.I'm so dead.

Currently feeling: Trying to study.....

Okay,i am bored.Bored to death.Death to bored.Okay,that makes no sense at all,i noe.I'm so sick of studying why some sick ancient ppl would bury their baby girls alive in Arab and about what you should to become a Brahmin.Yikes,who cares anyway??But i hv to,apparently,cuz History test is on Tuesday..and today's Sunday already.so depressing.

ok,so here goes :

:: Go to your music player of choice and put it on shuffle.
say the following questions aloud, and press play.
use the song titles that come up to answer each question.
NO CHEATING.


How does the world see me?:
心甘情愿 Xin Gan Qing Yuan???
which is a Guang Liang song which erm,if translated into english is 'set phrase) / (v) / perfectly happy to do / most willing to do'
I really don't see the connection here.What,the world see me as a someone who's most willing to do all the dirty work??Argh,Windows Media Player's fault!

Will I have a happy life?:
Here With Me (The Faders)
Here with me??Hmm...that's interesting.So,I DO have a happy life...i see,i see....

What do people really think of me?:
Behind Hazel Eyes (Kelly Clarkson)
Of all songs!!It has to choose smth that's so depressing!

Do people secretly lust after me?:
Love is Hard (Anita Mui & Jacky Cheung)
I guess no then.Yes,that's the understatement of the year.

How can I make myself happy?:
Somebody Needs You (Westlife)
Wahh--I have to make somebody need me to feel happy!What about independence??

What should I do with my life?:
Wonderful Things Lost from Carelessness (Angela Zhang)
Okay,quite badly translated,but it's what the song means lar.So...I should get back all the wonderful things lost from carelessness?Yeah rite,as if it's so easy.

Will I ever have children?:
I've Never Thought Of This Before (Victor Wong)
OII!!!!I HAVE THOUGHT OF THIS BEFORE!!Even since I was 9!I wrote it in my bm essay in a test.Got lectured by my teacher in the end.Yikes,i wasn't supposed to tell u that!Okay,i sounded like someone really sick.

What is some good advice for me?:
One Of These Days (Michelle Branch)
'One of these days
I won't be afraid of staying with you
I hope and I pray
Waiting to find a way back to you
Cause that's where I'm home'
Okay,I'll get meself some tissue nw...

What do I think my current theme song is?:
Our Love (F.I.R.)
I haven't heard this song in a thousand years!and now it's my theme song pulak!

What does everyone else think my current theme song is?:
Zhi Dui Ni Shuo [Sarang He Yo] (JJ Lin Jun Jie)
Erm...only say what?To who??

What song will play at my funeral?:
Love Cannot Be Compared (Victor Wong)
Aww...so that makes me INCOMPARABLE!!Yeahh!!

What type of men/women do you like?:
Kuai Le Wang Zi [Happy Prince] (Eric Lim)
Aww!But it's kinda a sad song.

What is my day going to be like?:
Angeline (live version by Guang Liang)
No revelance!I dun even noe anyone named Angeline!Unless I'm about to turn lesbian or smth.No way.

Why am I here?
The Only You In The World (Gary Cao Ge)
Aaah!!I'm unique!that's y!

What will people remember me for?:
Why Did He Leave You? (Sandy Lam)
I dunno,okay??

What song will I get stuck in my head tomorrow?:
Unrequited Love (Guang Liang)
Okay,rub it in,rub it in.

Are there people outside waiting to take me away?:
If You Still Love Me (Guang Liang)
I do.

What will this year be all about?
Self-Understanding (Pong Nan)
Okay...I'll try to understand myself more this year...

Tag seven people after this:
Hmmm...
1.Carmen (but she's done this already)
2.Nicole (aiya,but she would probably wouldn't wanna use my windows media player)
3.Mei Lin
4.Vivien
5.Hui Ying
6.Yael
7.Guang Liang!!(muahaha)

Okay,the results are mostly irrevelant!!

okay,back to studying....chiaoz.

Currently feeling: Full

That's the amount of days that i have to endure until i can finally forget about exams for a few months.Today's History paper was quite crappy.I was writing about Nabi Muhammad rearing goats and how many floors does a candi have.geeez.Argh,wat's over is over lar.Dun care.Well,at least that's one day down.Still got ten days to go for FREEDOM!

next week wednesday's the birthday of someone.17th May.Yikes,that's familiar.Okay,yes,Lee Hom.And yes,Andrea Corr of The Corrs.And yes also,the Sultan of Perlis.Geez.It's mine also lar.I'm gonna be sixteen soon and I dun feel like i've grown since i was 12.can't believe i'd be spending it by sitting for Biology and EST papers.Ish.why on earth does my midterm exams always collide with my birthday??

Divine_Reverie : Haihz.Mum still haven't given her word to let me buy front seats for Guang Liang's Malaysia concert.And I have to give my answer to the MIFC ppl to buy the tickets by the 15th of May which sadly is about 6 days away....

Currently feeling: lazy

yeahh!!mum has officially given the word that we can purchase the rm280 tickets to michael's concert!!(after a long family discussion..phew!)aaaahh!!

So,well....i need to prepare a proposal about the money and everything.will do that soon!now my prob is whether i should buy the tickets thru MIFC or not....haihz...

Divine_Reverie : I saw Jing Ming today.pffffttt. (mei lin,dun ask me,ask carmen if u have to.)

First it was Photobucket.

Now it's GMAIL.

i dunno why i can't log in today.i din lose my password.and i'm sure what my username is.and they say 'incorrect password' for provided username.ARGH!i hate i hate i hate passssswordss!!!!!

i'm gonna lose all my mails i received in the past!including those i found memorable.wat a wonderful birthday eve.

in the mean time while i fume till my ears turn red and become unsuitable for use,this is my new email addy : athlynntan90@gmail.com

i shall continue : i hate i hate i hate i hate i hate i hate PASSWORDS.

Currently feeling: Fuming.

oh well!it's 17th May!

yes,i'm finally turning 16!oh riteee!

well,nth outta the blue has happened yet.well,cuz,i'm still stuck at home.gt physics exam tomoro.geezzz.

but hey,it's not like i turn 16 everyday!hehehehehe!

btw,happy b'day too to Caryn,Lee Hom,Andrea Corr and the Sultan of Perlis!we are the jolly ppl of 17th may! (yes,i'm drunk)

divine_reverie :let's jz get drunk and never worry about driving license next year!

 

Currently feeling: crappy

Newly Translated!!

183 Club & 7 Flowers - Hao Ai Ta Hao Xiang Ta

7 Flowers - Wo Zhi Xiang Yao

JJ Lin Jun Jie - Zhi Dui Ni Shuo

Wow,it's been nearly a month since i translated any lyrics...geez.apologies.well,you noe,exams and all.haihz.which in speaking of,i really didn't do well in Physics.Perhaps i should really be glad and grateful to not fail.i am SO gonna study more.Constant studying!no more last minute studying for me! (and how many times have i told myself that in the past but still fail to do it properly.sighz)

Sweet Sixteen.Haihz,nth too sugar-coated for me this year.In fact,it was one of those worst ones.Despite having to study for exams,pressies and wishes get less too.I've only received three pressies so far.yeah i noe,it's the thought that counts.But i can't help counting how little in amount they're getting.Perhaps presents ain't a trend anymore.but it's THE THOUGHT THAT COUNTS.(yes,i noe).

Gosh...i'm sixteen already.so fast.I'm scaring meself now.

Holidays has started!!well,at least for me,hehe.gonna skip tomoro (which is actually my school's teacher's day) and go out to Penang with sis and mum.Hehe,planning to watch X-men 3!And also buy my White Romance DVD.(corny show.but it has Guang Liang in it.so be it.)Been working on the english MIFC site with one of his England fans.It's gonna be nice! (hopefully).

*scratches left eyelid*

Gawd,i think a mosquito jz bit my eyelid!!

Currently listening to: Seindah Biasa (by K7's girlfriend..hahah)
Currently feeling: and itchy.