Yup yup!today's the day!gonna go to prangin soon to exchange tix to the Guang Liang album promo activity...!hope to get VIP tix!!yeahh!!Wish me luck mann!the queue's gonna be so longgg.......ahh,but it's worth it..gonna meet cindy there,hmm...wonder hw she looks like.Anyway,i got kidnapped by Fat B yesterday in school.Why?u ask...?well,tell u later.hahaha...!

Currently listening to: Tong Hua by Guang Liang (hmmm...)
Currently feeling: excited

~~Done~~

Guang Liang - Wo Deng Ni

Stefanie Sun - Wan Mei De Yi Tian

Argh,this isn't wat i was supposed to do actually.Got tonnesss of addmaths,chemistry,sejarah,and moral homework to do!!being in form 4 is physchotic!!!!!!

Well,just wanna announce it here that i've managed to get VIP tix!!!6 VIP tix and 5 normal tix actually..to the Guang Liang in Prangin Mall autograph session..hhehehe...so cool!! went rushed there at around 3.30,met up with a MIFC member,Cindy,just to find out that the organizers haven't even set up the tables yet!!mailehh!!and when i was on the way there,i was so DAMN anxious!!so worried that VIP tix might run out b4 i get there..phew!stood around with cindy for hours and finally the organizers set up the stuffs.i was the first to line up!!the organizer guy sumore took pics of me (hehe,perasan...the whole crowd lar,bt i was in front mah!).at 6,the fella say "okok"...arrghhh!!that's when the horror starts!suddenly the whole crowd of ppl rushed to the counter!!!not fair!!i was so shocked!i rushed there too with cindy,jz to find that i left my whole paperbag of 3 original albums standing on the table where we lined up jz now!!!argh!!quickly squeezed in and out to get the albums back..phew!luckily no one took!changed vip tix during the first time and went back the 2nd time to get more!hehhheee..then the fella saw me holding one big bag of carlsberg caps,and offered to change 10 normal tix for us!!woohoo!!cindy and i took 5 each...so nice!!!

 

 

got to noe cindy a lot in the process of standing and waiting...she's 24,and had jz finished her course of masscom in USM.darn.she's from KL,living in penang for the past few years,and now when i need some1 from penang who's in MIFC,she had already finished her course!!argh!!no one to go exchange tix with me ade...*sigh*.she's a nice girl,friendly and all.she sumore say that i can hold the MIFC banner on the 14th when i told her it was my dream!muahahahha!so paiseh!but still,i really really wanna hold the banner!!MIFC members will be wearing the MIFC shirt that day...yerr,i dun have!!cindy says that i can wear a white shirt.yorr!of all colours..!white!!white makes me look so fat.(gawd,i sound bimbotic.)anywaylar,when i say it makes me look fat,it's literally!!where am i gonna find a white shirt that is nice and doesn't make me look like i've got fats overflowing in my body??gotta go runsack ah yee's wardrobe later in the weekend..hehehe..

 

 

really plan to give him the small paper pianos i folded for him...in a glass bottle..really hope that he'll accept it..*sigh*what if he doesn't??awww..at least then just hold me hand warmly and shake it nicely...that'll be nice.hhehehee....!414...plz be here faster!!Michael..!!This is our date/commitment/agreement/watever!

 

 

Currently feeling: tired

So...what shoud i say?

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I stared at the computer screen for so long..my eyes are starting to water,my lips getting dry..argh,it's so weird that for the past few days i've been filled with so many thoughts wanting to be spilled out but now,nothing,nil,zero,kosong.argh,blogger's block.got such thing ar?argh,why does that matter?

for the past few days,quite a lot has happened.

First,i dunno if i've written this,but Guang Liang has been made Artist of the Month by FM988!!haha,i've been waiting for this to happen like since Wilbur Pan was Artist of the Month,and that was August last year.Phew.

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2nd,have you ever had a friend that kept on sending msgs to you,telling you that life is too cold and lonely to be continued,and the pain is too much to bear that she just wants to commit suicide by slashing her wrists?I did,and so did my two other friends,and we totally dunno what to do about it.the problem started when smth happened between her and her best friend,and then the whole cold war started.maybe we might look at it and say that it's a damn simple and stupid thing to want to die for,but this friend of mine,isn't that simple.Do u noe what she does in class??She pokes her wrists with her mechanical pencil till it's all RED!!it must've been all her problems bottled up till it's so bloody full and now it's overflowing.watever her problems are,i jz wish she would tell it to someone.we tried to get her to spill the things other than the fight between her and her best friend,but all we got was 'you won't understand'.Perhaps i might sound a lil' selfish for saying this but the thing is,we're not really the gang of ppl she usually hangs out with,but we're good friends anyway.but now she's become so troubled,she turns to us instead.After a while when her msgs turned to 'won't it be nice if i could jz end my life with jz a slash on my wrist?I won't feel the pain at all',we decided that the ppl she hangs out with should know too.but when one of them knew,apparently she's fine and was talking about tuition to her.Don't you think that it's so weird??talk to a us,the ppl she doesn't really hang out with about suicide,and about TUITION to someone she hangs out with almost everyday??I really dunno,mann.I just wish that there's someone who can get her out of this misery.We thought of getting counselling for her,but who??our counsellor in school is nothing but a biatching b*tch.Sending her there would be like sending her straight to hell.We all just feel so helpless when we know how troubled she is,but still,there's nothing much we can doI just really wish and hope that all the misery and pain,cold nights and headaches will end soon for her.As a friend,it's really scary and darn worrying to have someone who was so bubbly before,now telling you single everyday....death will end it all.

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3rd,well,our school's drama team and public speaking won first place.and as u noe,choral speaking,the competition that our stupid school has been winning for 8 years in a row,did not.we got second.And the stupid teachers announced and congratulated the drama team and public speaking team in front of the whole school.And guess what,nothing,absolutely nothing AT ALL was mentioned about us getting 2nd for choral speaking.NOT A SINGLE WORD WAS SAID about us!it's not like we didn't work hard for it,it's not like we went there and disgraced our school's name by acting like monkeys on stage.WE DID OUR BEST.and we didn't get first.So be it!!it's not like we don't feel the disappointment ourselves.as if we didn't work hard enough.as if we didn't deserved getting number 1.it was the judges that didn't see the better team.at least when you didn't get the apreciation for your hard work from outsiders,at least the ppl from inside appreciates it.BUT for us,heck no.SMKCBM is currently ASHAMED of its choral speaking team.WHAT THE F*CK!!I really regretted wasting all my holidays to attend the practices and learning how to fling my arms around or what you call 'conduct' and cracking my brains together with Carmen to fix the script!so,the conclusion that the stupid school is trying to give us is :

Number 1s are ALL the world wants,number 2s..get lost.

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FCUK.then where do all the Number 2s go??Kept in the dark,being ashamed of for working so hard.

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4th,our school held its Speech Day on last Saturday.Got the award for getting straight 7As for PMR.Well,the prize was a small lil' pewter thing with my name on it.Haihz,where's my prize money??How come SPM straight A students get RM 50 (that's what I heard) and the stupid NILAM program students get prize money too?darn.Anyways,got to wear my prefect's tie and blazer for the day.hehehe.i dun look too bad. but heck,the blazer was too big for me,cuz i bought 2nd hand from Joan.Got nagged by mum for being so stupid and she agreed to fix it a bit after a bit of nagging.Held a suprised pre-birthday celebration for Evelyn.We bought a new york cheese cake for her.Wahh--one piece per person was seriously already too much!!I couldn't finish it!not even half way,i felt like puking already.it was really great,but it's a lil' too much.What a waste.I ate the yummy chocolate stuffs below and threw about 1/3 of the cheese away.Wooh.Took a lot of pics that day,btw.Trying hard to get the pics,wondering if Evelyn has uploaded it.Got one from yael anyway.

 

 

Currently feeling: thoughtful

Nope,nth special abt the entry title.find it kinda amusing cuz it's u noe,twelve twelve.haha,yes,i need to go to my warm,soft and comfy bed. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

 

 

Been looking back at my archives and found out that there are many images missing,saying 'oops,this image isn't linked here anymore' or watever crap.figured that i should perhaps go to my photobucket albums to get some of the pics back into the right place.argh,darn,but dunno why i couldn't log in!i go to the site like usual,type my password out,and blah!

[LOGIN FAILED.WRONG USERNAME OR PASSWORD.PLEASE CHECK AGAIN.]

DARN.DARN.DARN.

What the heck is wrong with it??Tried again a couple more of times.And then I finally got :

[*TOO MANY FAILED LOGIN.TRY BACK LATER]

All i really wanna do at this point of my life,and this hour of the night is
BANG MY HEAD AGAINST THE WALL.

Someone plz remind me to check it out again tomoro.Haihz.

 

Divine_Reverie : Like what I said I did earlier,I looked back and read my earlier posts from last year.Besides that,I've also been peeking into Mei Lin's blog too.Sometimes I really feel that my life is darn boring.It's like a blank book,written only with one letter oneach page.Well,can't complain,cuz it ain't gonna change anything.Well,the main point is,yes,I lead a boring life and yes,I do smths wish that I lead a less boring life,but still....this is my life.and I've sorta taken a liking to it.Cuz,well,it's my life and nobody else's.

well,smths i feel like a worm.got nowhere to hide except my comfy ol' hole in the ground.

Yes,i'm depressed.I've never felt this worse for months.

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Tomorrow's the day i've been waiting for all year,since august.And today,nothing has been right.First my period came.Second,there's tonnes of homework.Third,I know for sure I didn't win anything for the stupid Chinese newspaper contest I joined by writing two pages of chinese words just to meet Guang Liang for half an hour (with 19 other people)Oh,the disappointment..(~must be my sucky chinese writing~)...(cindy's going cuz her friend won.)Fourth,Dad grumbled when i said i wanted to go there earlier....i nearly smashed my head against the wall.he's rightlar,i noe,cuz the thing only starts at 8.Uncle Cheah can't come back earlier from work to take us there.he'll come back around 4.30pm,which in my opinion will be too late to get front row view,but with me being so depressed now.....it didn't seem to matter anymore now.

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And a few dashes of some low self-esteem.which really really can bring me down so low i feel like dying.

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Guess how i'm feeling now?

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Argh,like what they say:

You wouldn't understand.

Currently feeling: depressed

Yup,it's over.

Mannn,why do such things end so fast??The more you enjoy yourself,the faster the time flies.Why oh why....?

Yes,I finally went to see Guang Liang live in Prangin Mall!!Wooohoooo!!It was simply awesome (hehheehee)!Took loads of pics,and finally gave the paper pianos to the man by myself!!I actually have loads to post about this,but erm,my 2 oral test tomoro ain't gonna let me do that...haihzzzz...i hate school.

Hoping to share the pics,bitz and bitez soon.

And oh yeah,erm...soree for the lack of updates on lyrics translations.keep requesting,i'm still around.hehe...

Divine_Reverie : I actually won consolation for the chinese newspaper Guang Liang contest!!hahaha,i wasn't expecting much since I know i didn't win the first prize.Haha,got Yue Ding's CD single and a poster of him.Have to collect it personally at their office in Penang.Darn,does anyone know where is Lebuh Presgrave in Penang???oh yeah,won't be home or in penang next weekend,gonna go for a prefects' camp.More details soon,i supposed.

Currently feeling: crappy

Nope.I'm still very loaded with homework to post about the Guang Liang autograph session...wanna do it,but as time flies by,and i get lazier,and i just hear myself saying..'aiyah,no need write down lar.just let it remain as a beautiful memory in my mind'.But nope,i dunwanna risk myself having amnesia later and forget everything about that night.So,i'm gonna do it.Soon.Later.But certainly not now.

Cuz i still have my uniform to iron.and my bed to sleep on.and not forgetting a mind and heart to soothe.

It's just so weird when how sometimes I can get so depressed and inflict pain on someone else without meaning to.wait-it's not actually pain,rather more of annoyance.yes,ppl around me get ANNOYED when i'm depressed.maybe when i'm depressed i dun like to talk,i dun like to respond to the world around me and just act ignorant.and this is considered RUDE by the ppl around me.it's just so frustrating when i'm already not feeling very good about myself and there you come rubbing even more 'irrevelant' salt to my wounds.But after cooling down and doing a bit more of thinking of the other side of the story,i'm actually very wrong to have reacted so coolly.it's my bloody fault,i noe it.but i can't seem to bring myself forward to apologize.cuz i noe she understands(perhaps?).argh,i hate PMS and teen angst.perhaps this is just a stage of life where you think that the whole world is against you and that there's nothing more comforting than taking that sharp blade and just press it against your wrist.Regardless of how i'm feeling,it's really nothing that i wanna be concerned with.I just wanna know when i'm gonna get pass this stage and finally live a happier life.

Divine_Reverie: Poor Carmen hasn't showed up for school for three days already.Experience of a really bad toothache.Poor gal,hope she turns up fine soon.or Jay Rock will be soon be wailing in his monotonous voice box for her.

Currently feeling: stressed

i'm clearing off (i keep the papers and ribbons,save money from buying fancy paper) the two bouquets of flowers mum received for her birthday while drinking a glass of ribena.

Haihz...mum came in jz now and asked me what i was doing.I stared at her guiltily and quickly minimized the IM conversation window down (i've jz upgraded to MSN LIVE!).

Mum :i saw smth pink jz now...what was that?what were u doin?

(smth pink??)

me (frozen a lil while staring at my sejarah homework):Erm,nth ar..

Mum : hmm...*turns my history textbook over* ...oklar..*pats my hair*

me : *sheepishly* G'Nite mum...

Mum leaves room.Phew!

Gawd.i feel so guilty.her birthday was last week,and despite us bringing her out for dinner and bought her flowers...well,the thing is,i din contribute a single cent to that.and it's sorta a yearly routine that i make some bday card for her(saving money skim)...but this year,however,i did not.out of the laziness and pressure of homework and the temptation of the evill thing called computer/internet...i did not do anything.except buying that cheap Aries bookmark which btw,i din't even give her.i'm absolutely a terrible daughter!I better think of smth to do tonite!and try to finish it tomoro! Midyear exam's coming soon too.....i hate studying.ish.

Divine_Reverie : Was announcer for the whole week...and we had perhimpunan rasmi!!ish ish ish!and Fat b has to gve the LONGESTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT speech of the year on that particular day!A TUESDAY!one of our 'depression' day!i knew smth bad was bound to happen!was so darn nervous.forgot to put up my hand for ikrar..realized it,and forgot which hand to put up.ended up alternating thru the whole ikrar.darn.luckily fat b and pn kuan din realize...when Fat b got down the stage,she bent over and whispered to me 'senyumlah sikit semasa bercakap'.ISH.tell me to smile when i'm so nervous!!i felt like kicking her rite on the spot.--and btw,MIFC now has a english forum!!we're talking about making a new english site for MIFC too!cool,eh?btw,i'm ordering the MIFC shirt!!hehehe..--btw,mum and dad collected the prizes i won consolation for the newspaper competition.the Yue Ding's CD single is absolutely cool!!black and sleek!so yeng!but sadly inside has only one song.Well,it's called a SINGLE for a reason,rite??

Currently listening to: Doll by Pong Nan
Currently feeling: guilty

Gawd....!!i jz feel like screaming nowww!!!

urgh,nth is rite now and nth is left either!!

first,jz received the news about the Guang Liang's Malaysia Concert ticket price...guess how much is the front row???RM 280!!!!ARGHHH!!!!!!i actually only expected about rm 200,rm250 to the max!!now it's rm280!!!these stupid organizers are sucking our money!!!!my dreams of sitting in front in the front row of his concert is currently shattered.

next,the stupid tabulas (yes tab!) can't seem to except the chinese words i post up!like the translation i uploaded yesterday..the chinese words only came up in a series of annoying ??????????.what ON EARTHH IS WRONG WITH YOU????

then next,i can't access www.just-michael.com suddenly!!!!i dunno y!!GERAMMMMMM LORR!!!

finally,after restarting my pc,my browser's bookmarked links are all gone.Gone.gone.GonE!!!!!have to put them back up again!ARGH.

tell me,it's such a great night,dun ya think??

Currently feeling: Pek chek

it's been quite a long time since i've last updated my lyric translations cuz of the mounting school stuffs.feeling guilty bout that,i translated a song and posted it up.Ah,surprise surprise.....all the chinese characters show up only in a series of ??????????????????.

i've been trying to repost it a thousand million times but nth seems to be working.the ???????? still appears.haihz,someone oh someone from tabulas...if you notice my entry's title,plz try to help me by fixing this...i've already submitted a trouble ticket but i'm afraid that you guys might just ignore it.so here i am,posting in my own tab,doubtful whether u'll respond at all.geez,plz plz plz try to help,anyone...without the chinese characters showing up,this whole translation service is screwed up and i can't continue translating songs anymore.thnx.....

Currently feeling: frustrated

Okay,hmm...everything seems to be back to normal...thnk gawd!and of course to the ppl at tabulas (i dunno if it's u guys who fixed it,cuz i din receive any response at my trouble ticket,bt since now it's fixed so i'll jz say a simple thank you ) The newly translated song,btw,is :

Sam,Lee Sheng Jie : Ni Men Yao Kuai Le

Currently listening to: Kwong Seung Kuk by Twins
Currently feeling: pleased